Hey guys, wow i've been so lazy lately. I thought maybe I should update, not that anyone reads my journals anyway...

So The major announcement is that I don't have photoshop. So all of the Gifts and Prizes that i promiced are going to be held off until i buy another version of photoshop... I will deffinatly do them, no doubt about that, but because i don't have the proper software I won't be doing them until i get it.

uh well besides that I've been looking at life pretty pessimisticly lately. I just graduated High school, and now i'm going into the whole college thing.. The problem is, is that I have no freaking idea whatsoever what i want to do with my life.. I mean i love art but i don't feel as though i am good enough to go into art a career. Oh and I won as class artist.. yay me. *Sigh* Its not something i feel i am quite honestly good at. And I love acting, singing, and dancing, just performing in general, but once again I am faced with the fact that I don't feel that I am actually good at it.

My parents said I have to start college in January, they don't understand anything. I haven't applied anywhere and i have no idea where to apply since I don't know what I want to do. Except they told me I have to stay local for two years which makes my life so much harder. And work is honestly a pain in the ass, but i don't make enough to actually support myself if i wanted to buy or rent an apartment or anything of the sort. Like I said I would love to sell my art, but i doubt anyone would buy that or any of my photgraphs for that matter. I'm just tired of working and picking up after peoples crap its alot to deal with. I can't stand living with my parents, I'm so calm and happy when they aren't home but when they are I'm just so stressed and want to strangle someone...

... Uh i hate people.